Yesterday was not fun. I started the day with a heavy heart, and by the end of the day, I had worked myself into quite a frenzy over a situation which resulted in an ugly fight with Nathan. My reaction to him was not a “proportional response”.
Writing a public blog about personal things can be tricky. The snippets that I share give a tiny window into our life. There are lots of things that are going on that I don’t talk about because I don’t feel comfortable sharing it or it just isn’t appropriate. So, this isn’t a complete representation of our lives. I often write about things that are struggles for me. That doesn’t mean that I’m in a constant state of worry, depression, defeat and frustration. It may just mean that it’s the most interesting thing to talk about. Even given the drawbacks of this format, I’ve decided that I still want to use this as a place where I can be really honest about life’s ups and downs.
So, after all that I wrote earlier about the fine line of what to share and what not to share, why would I even mention having a fight with my husband?
I’ll give you three simple reasons-
1. I’m going through a dark season right now and I need your prayers and encouragement. I already know the the proper answers and ways to do things. I just need some extra help to hold me up right now.
2. And to perhaps encourage someone else who is having a hard time by letting them know that they aren’t the only one.
3. The fight wasn’t Nathan’s fault. It was mine.
By the way, do you know how hard it is to hold on to angry feelings on a car ride when your 3 year old, keeps saying,
“Mom, I love you so much your feet stink.”
“Mom I love you so much your nose stinks.”
and my personal favorite
“Holy smokes! Look at those trees! Holy smokes!”
Is that swearing?
A&E from almost exactly a year ago!