Moving has given me many opportunities to deal with my issues with anxiety. I mentioned fear in a previous post. There is nothing like uprooting your life to shine a huge light on insecurities.
These are the things that are on my mind and giving me knots in my stomach:
1. Figuring out if the kids and I will be able to qualify for a different insurance plan that would cost less than the gap coverage we are offered through Nathan’s old employer and worrying that if we don’t have perfect health we wont be accepted.
2. Waiting for our reimbursement for moving expenses.
3. Figuring out our new budget in a new place with new costs for everything.
4. We need a renter for our home in Winsted.
5. We need to get our banking account up and running here in Tennessee.
I’m learning that it does no good to just walk around with these things in my head. Do I really believe that God will provide for our needs? If I do, I need to give Him my list. Just making the list is cathartic. I think sometimes I feel anxious, but I can’t really put my finger on why. When I finally take time to list my fears, I feel better better because I have a specific place to start.
Now is the time to take the anxiety out of my heart and head and hand it over to the only One who can do anything about it.
Worrying never solved a problem.
Worrying never gave more control over uncontrolable situations.
Worrying never energizes it only paralyzes.
Worrying says, “I don’t trust You to take care of me.”
Forgive me Lord, for not trusting. The doors You open, no one can shut. The doors You shut, no one can open. There is freedom in that knowledge. Help me to remember that You love me madly and will take care of every single one of our needs. I don’t need to carry this burden that You’ve already offered to take.
Are you anxious about anything today? I would love to pray for you!
